felt mildly interested in finding a pencil and annotating while reading. feelings of laziness/cold over-rided this.
fell asleep mid-way chap 1 and woke with extraordinary amounts of back pain. thought about possible reasons, concluded bush-walking, humorously compared this to friend’s complaint of similar back pain due to, i think, sex.
things ingested so far while reading: water, fruit and nut chocolate bar, diet coke, whiskey, peas
feeling equal amounts of excitement about reading and eating *more* in as-yet-unspecified amounts.
noticed diet coke smells like ‘ass whiff’.
imagined ‘ass whiff’ is an icecream flavour.
interested by paul going to parties to find girlfriends and spending other time alone. seems like work/play but play could be confused with biological inclination to find mate. feel opposite inclination when socialising with friends, generally.
have felt low identification with female characters (less so than with Paul) but interested in which character represents megan boyle as read her book something-‘mexican panda express employee’ and felt close affinity with her um, mind.
became very excited when Paul and Erin listened to ‘Torn’ by Natalie Imbruglia, after this conversation 2 hours previously, when began reading Taipei:
this felt eerie, though non-threatening. hansen didn’t seem excited by this point (he was unaware that the book was taipei, of taiwan, and he is also currently in taiwan, though diff city)
keep reading erin as megan. felt excited to meet megan boyle character, like, ‘yesssssssss’.
surrounded by less furniture and people than normal at home. seems life is cushions snacks mac technology
had a thought today that social interaction seemed like ‘the most basic form of expressing oneself’
felt ‘hugged’ by erin and pauls relationship. haha not sure what that means. it felt like a warm relationship.
sent ‘this is the best thing i have read in, memory’ to a friend with regard to taipei
felt confused by the ending because it didn’t really seem like a ‘finale’ but a brief summation of the feelings paul felt in a short period of time within the last scene, but also acknowledged accumulated drug-use and self- and relationship-analysis as informing last words, which seemed hopeful, but not resolute, to me.